Time Flies and Crawls

Life has been a little schizoid lately.  I can't believe that it is already the middle of October while I can't believe it is only the middle of October.  Maybe I'm the one with the problem.  Maybe it is because October has no holidays recognized by the university or because we have had constant rain.  Time crawls during the working hours.  Home after class, I turn around and it is midnight. 

Randomness

l. I'm fascinated by the whole subculture of Mormon mommy blogs.
2. Dining out with two chefs is different than dining out with non-chefs. Non-chefs don't worry about egg yolks.
3. One of the most tiring things in the world is an unchallenging, unengaging job.
4. People who sigh all the time drive me crazy.
5. My granddaughter fascinates me.
6.I am seriously addicted to my iphone apps.
7. Fall is a wonderful season.

C to G

Yesterday was the first graduation meeting. We heard from the deans and received a sheet of paper with all the important dates. I have a hard time believing that law school is almost over. It has been an amazing experience. The people I've met, the professors I've had, the ideas shared and the opportunities provided. I'm still unsure what I will do when I graduate. That will come. I'm going to enjoy this last year.

Sonshine

My son and I saw Brad Pitt's latest. Both the movie and company were superb!

Law school is meant to be challenging. But not all challenges have been intellectual. This is the stairwell in our main classroom building. It is smooth and slick with metal edging. Now imagine being loaded down with a rolling laptop case, backpack, and purse at 9:00 pm with a serious fear of falling up. Scary.

4E

Unsure as to whether to continue blogging, I took the last six weeks off. Then it hit me over the long weekend - this is my last year of law school. What better way to remember this last year than by writing about it.

To say that I have enjoyed law school would be an understatement. I have loved it and have felt truly blessed to have this opportunity. After losing one career, I really struggled to find my place. Going to law school provided me with a sort of "time out." I haven't had to know what I was going to do with my life because, well, I'm in law school. Right now I have a pretty good idea what I am going to be doing through the end of July 2010. After that, who knows.

I can almost make myself sick not having a job as an attorney already lined up. Deep in my heart, I would love to find the one perfect attorney position and work at it for the next 12 years. I'm also smart enough to know that probably won't happen and getting sick about it won't help. So I am trying to just really enjoy this last year.

Isn't that what we are supposed to do any way - enjoy life?

12, 7 and 1

Twelve years ago my life changed drastically. My older daughter and I had a fight and the resulting fallout sent me into a psychic meltdown. I have always suffered from depression but this time was bad. I took a leave from teaching. My mother came to stay with us (I still had two kids at home) and to help while I was treated. Last summer I suffered from anniversary anxiety and had a difficult time. This summer is so much better.

Seven years ago school started without me. My teaching career had imploded. I was hurting because I felt that teaching was my way to use my God-given gifts. I struggled to imagine a life of without students.

One year from now I will be studying for the bar. It is hard to imagine that I have just two semesters of law school left. The party is being planned. Not only to celebrate my law school graduation but to mark how far I've come from 12 and 7.